advice

ok, so in english we got an assignment and we have to write about how we've changed or grown in the past year both positive and negative things. of course the first thing that came to mind was my being gay/coming out. today was my first day at school and i just met my teacher who seems pretty cool. but i don't know what will happen if i write about that and i mean basically it's the only thing i can think of to write about. any thoughts?

UC Davis

On Sunday i went to UCD with my aunt to visit some of her friends and to give me a chance to see the campus. for a while i've wanted to go to UCD and after seeing the campus and learning about the school i'm sure i want to go there. i biked around the campus and got to see davis which is a nice town. everyone there is really into agriculture, the house that we stayed at had over 500 species of plants and they had chickens, a tortoise, and 2 very sweet dogs. i ran into someone i knew from camp and it was fun.

anyway, tomorrow i start school and i'm really excited, i get to see my friends and hopefully school will be interesting and i won't be totally bored out of my mind. i can't wait to see if i have good teachers. and i'm curious to see what health/identity/society is about since it's a new class and everyone has no idea what it is. all i know is that there's no homework so that's cool. it's going to be so weird getting up at like 6 for school. school starts at 7:40 and goes until 3:09. at least it's a short week, 3 days and then a 3 day weekend.

cliques

ok, at least at my school there are obvious cliques but i don't think it's all too bad. for me it's kinda weird because i have a bunch of friends from elementary school who i'm still very good friends with. but i guess clique wise i would fall into the geek/nerds/band dorks. i mean even though i love sports i haven't been able to play for like 2 years because of a knee injury so i wouldn't be a jock. i'm NOT a cheerleader. i'm not punk or goth. i hang out with a bunch of drama people but i'm not into drama, i don't act or sing. so, to be able to hang out with them i do stage crew or do sound. maybe senoir year i'll be stage manager.
anyway, i was on leadership this past year (student government) and i met a bunch of people who in past years i didn't get along because we were in "different cliques" and i guess it really made me realize that even the most unlikely people can become good friends.
i think seperating people in school by cliques is kinda stupid, but someone told me once that as humans we feel the need to catagorize everyone into groups. i'm still not sure if thats what i believe but i think in terms of cliques it makes sense. what do you think of cliques? and what cliques are/were you in?

summer's almost over

well, i just got back from oregon. it was a lot of fun, just super hot. we spent 3 days going to plays, walking around ashland, and spending time with my grandparents. the thing i did notice is that where we were there was no diversity. there were no asians or anything other than white people. now, don't get me wrong there's nothing wrong with that.. i guess i'm just used to a lot of diversity. anyway i have no idea what i'm saying i just wanted to post something.. school starts in 2 weeks... i'm kind of excited..
-Nikki

Camp/Summer

So, for the last two weeks i've been CITing (Couselor in training) at this summer camp with a bunch of little kids. it's been so much fun, the other CITs are awesome and we've gotten along great. i've gotten so used to waking up every moring and seeing all of them bright and early because CITs have to get there way before the campers do. every day at around one me and like 3 of the CITs had a 30 minute break where we would go off into the park and just hang out and talk about stuff that we couldn't say around the campers. and i think now after 2 weeks we've gotten pretty close. actually i didn't really want to go but my parents made me and as much as it hurts me to say it i'm glad they did.. i met a bunch of cool people and had a lot of fun.
then on friday i'm going up to oregon to visit family and see a few plays. then i have a few days with my friend to hang out and then school starts. so ya.. i'll be away from the computer for like a week...
-Nikki

Kate Moennig

I'm OUT!!

ok so yesterday i came out to three friends all of which reacted REALLY well and are totally cool. two told me they were bi, well they think they're bi. D is straight, K is bi, and J thinks she's bi. actually i took the easy way out and told them over aim but it was cool and maybe the next person i tell, i'll tell in person or over the phone. they made me feel bad about not being able to tell them.. each was like dude... we love you it's no big deal.. you're still you... it was awesome.. i felt so great after telling them.. for all you people still in the closet even though over AIM isn't very i guess personal it's easier atleast for me. two of them had suspected i was gay.. yes because i had been talking about how hot kate is! K agrees with me about kate... anyway it was awesome and i can't wait to see them in person and to come out to more people!
-Nikki

hey you guys... this was written with my awesome fountain pen that i finally fixed!!!
love ya guys..
Nikki