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wow.. it's been a while.. i kinda forgot about my blog.. i hate my job and school's gettin' lame. honestly the only reason i get up to go to school is to see my friends and cause i have to keep my grades up or my parents won't let me stay on the mountain biking team. let me just say, i love moutain biking, it has become my life. my coach is awesome and hot mtb girl is totally awesome. i love my team and just the feeling i get when i'm going downhill, flying on my bike. i'm pretty much totally out, except at work just cause it's a jewish thing and my synagogue isn't too big on the gay thing. my life is actually pretty boring. school, work, mtb practice/rides, hw, sleep, repeat.

i wish it was summer, then i could just kick back and relax and chill on skype all day. plus then i could mtb all day just like i want to do right now, but can't. i guess that's my life summed up in like 2 paragraphs.. i'm too tired to write more, plus my life's boring as fuck
-nikki

The Best Day of My Life!

So, yesterday i went to Y.E.S (Youth Empowerment Summit) sponsored by the GSA Network. I went with 3 of my friends (Z,K,L) (all straight) and a bunch of other people that i know from school. We got there way too early, we got off BART and then ended up walking in the opposite direction, it's nice knowing that i'm not the only one with a horrible sense of direction. Anyway, this guy was like following us and eventually got in front of us and started talking to us, telling us not to be scared of him.. ya.. he was creepy. but then he was talking about how he was going to see a lawyer and asked if we had ever seen a lawyer, and R says, "nope, cause we don't need one". that was awesome. we got there ate breakfast, and went to the opening event. ok, that was awesome but then we got to go to our first workshop. we went to this one that talks about all the new laws that prevent discrimination laws. i found out that one of my teachers had violated one of them, but it's really interesting. at least where i live the laws have gotten really tight, so there shouldn't be that much homophobia and transphobia, but there still is. then lunch, and then our second workshop. this one sucked, it was about drugs and how gay people are more likely to use drugs and alcohol. it would have been interesting but nope... the guy was just like so, drugs... the third workshop also sucked. it was how to get a date, and ya.. speed dating sucks, or at least this one did.. i ended up talking to all the guys.. which is not what i was looking for. this guy i talked to after said he had all the girls.. so we should have switched spots. i will point out that we got to pick the workshops, but the first one was great and i definitely choose different ones next year!

after the conference we walked around San Francisco, i think we were in the Castro area, looking for dinner. we ended up going to California Pizza Kitchen and separated by grade level. it was so much fun, we laughed and talked about the conference. then when it came time to pay, we spent then longest time figuring out the tip. when we finally did we realized we had done it the long and hard way. we walked to the dance and then hung out.

the dance was ok, it was fun dancing but all the cute girls had girlfriends so that kinda sucked. but in all i had a great time. my friends couldn't believe how happy i was, it was just so great being around either people who were gay or people who were just totally gay friendly. i wish every day was like that.. i mean i really felt like a totally different person. it was truly amazing, it really was the best day of my life!

where'd my weekend go?

on friday i got home quickly packed to go backpacking. that ended up taking an hour when it should only have taken like 2o minutes.. but i had to wash and find a bunch of stuff. then i quickly made dinner to take with me that i would eat when we got to camp. finally i had a few minutes before my ride got there so i watched antm.. i liked it a lot. my ride was late but it was all good.. i got to the meeting spot and hung out with all my friends then we hiked. it was a short hike, only about 3-5 miles with minimal hills. when we got to camp we set up our tent and hung out. in all it was an awesome trip except my stuff got drenched.. so i slept in a wet sleeping bag. we fit four people into a two person tent which worked out great because there was so much body heat that i didn't freeze to death. the downer was that my friend b and l stayed up all night talking about all the guys and gossiping about the people on the trip.. i don't care what they were talking about but gah.. all night. anyway, the entire trip my other friend a kept telling me that i should date this guy that goes to our school; the weird thing, i came out to her a while ago.

ok, now i know i complain a lot but i have to complain about my bio partner. we have a bio project and we both researched because those grades are individual. but now it's time to do the poster and i'm doing every thing. i told her that i would do everything except write her part for the poster. all she has to do is write is and email it to me then i'll put it on the poster. we both agreed to this. but it's sunday and the project is due wicked soon and i haven't gotten anything. i know i'm going to end up writing her part and i would be totally fine with that except we agreed that she would just do that and well i don't have time. if i tell the teacher she'll basically fail and this is a pretty big project and well she's my friend. fuck.. oh well. i'm over thinking this and i know i sound like an idiot, it should be simple right? just tell the teacher. but.. she's a pretty good friend and i don't know. it's always like this, group projects mean i do everything cause no one else has the motivation to do shit. i do everything and everyone gets an A.
off to buy poster paper...
enjoy your sunday

monday

wow.. it's been a while. schools gotten crazy. let me just say, geometry is the most pointless subject that i have ever been forced to take. i hate it, yes, it's worse than health. gah, when i ever going to have to make a flow proof to prove some insane statement. i suck at math, so i won't ever become a mathematician or major in math. oh well, it's starting to make some sense. we have monday off because of staff development day, this has become my favorite day off, perfectly timed. in leadership we've been working on homecoming, ie figuring out how it's going to happen this year. powderpuff is gone, some people put up RIP posters that's how i found out, yup i never know anything.
anyway, Wednesday's national coming out day, i hope to come out to one of my best friend s who's one of the coolest people i know. GSA's having a party so that's pretty cool. umm.. i went "swimming" in this pond/stream in tilden. it was totally fun, cept wicked cold. then i hung out with a bunch of friends, so that was pretty cool. then i went home and watched movies with my little sister. we watched DEBS and X-Men 3. i hadn't seen X Men 3 and i thought it was ok. i liked the second one the most still..and of course i love DEBS. i mean jordana brewster.. need i say more?
oh i'm going to Australia next summer with people to people. i got accepted. so, if anyone's got any fundraising tips they would be greatly appreciated!
enjoy your monday!

complaining

i've ment to post.. but then i don't. school is getting kinda boring. my mom came home from back to school night and said "nikki, i hate your spanish teacher" first time in 15 years that she's ever said that. ya.. the guy sucks, unfortunatly this year he decided to try and teach us something. whatever, he ignores me, i sit there and rarely raise my hand and guess what the guy never calls on me. whatever, more time for me to just sit and day dream. hmm.. oh, my english teacher has been gone for 3 out of the 4 weeks we've been in school. we don't know where he is, no one is telling us anything, we just have subs and don't learn anything. and homecoming might be cancelled. personally i don't care but i've never had all too much school spirit. theres this girl in my student gov. class who is obsessed with homecoming happening just like it always has, but the administration won't let us. i won't be there on monday too listen to more agruing between the administration, leadership class, and student body. we had a bunch of people come in and interupt our "class" to tell us that we suck. it was actually very entertaining almost as good as when they let us run around the school for 90 min. for "leadership boot camp".
that's what has been going on with me. all in all it's pretty boring. i got a mild concusion on wed. 20th so i haven't been able to take tests because i guess i messes up part of my brain cause i can't remember things all too well.. which sucks. i have like 10 tests to make up. anyway, monday's yom kippur, happy fasting... for all who will be fasting. i will.
i started work, i'm TAing in a fourth grade class at my synagogue's hebrew school. it's not that bad as long as they keep me with that class, cause i get to work with my friend. it was funny, someone called me during class and my pants start buzzing and my friend was the only who notices and we was like 3 people away, the teacher was oblivious which is good cause.. well i want to get paid. anyway, my other friend works there and we drive together so it's not bad, and they know not to put me in my sisters class because all hell would break loose. oh, i met a girl that has my hebrew name, which has never happened before. so it's super confusing when he says it because it's the name i'm most used to hearing in that setting.
ok i'm done rambling, enjoy you weekend and happy yom kippur. i don't think i spelled that right by the way.

Next Summer

i love school, i always have and probably always will. but, i also love the summer. i live going to band camp and hanging out with friends without having to worry about studying. this summer my friend emailed me saying that she was going to Australia with this group and of course i wanted to go, cause well i've always wanted to go there. but to go with the program you had to get nominated by an alumni of the program. someone nominated me and i'm now eligible to go, all i have to do is get two teacher recommendations and go to an interview. it sounds hecka fun, you get to go snorkeling in a reef and all this other totally awesome stuff. now i'm all excited for the summer, i just want to fast forward through school and have it be summer so i can find out if i get to go to Australia. has anyone participated in a people to people program? anyway, back to my homework...

happy friday

ok.. so i love fridays!! i get out of school at 2:15 instead of 3:10 and i only have three classes. plus i have a 40 minute free period. i guess we have a game today because the cheerleaders did a little routine thing at break, but no one announced the game so i'm super confused. plus everyone was wearing red (our school colors are red and white). i was wearing a red shirt but that was totally coincidental.. you would think that being on leadership i would be in the loop but i guess not..
anyway, last night i told my last years teacher that i'm gay. i didn't tell her in person or over the phone, i told her in an email. on tuesday when i helped her out i said things that i felt needed an explination so i told her. so today when i got home i checked my email and she had responded. well of course everything was fine because..she is gay too.. which i've known but it was still kinda weird telling her. i'm totally glad i told her and i can't wait until i see her on tuesday. so ya.. that's really all that's happened...oh.. i did end up writing about how i'm gay for that essay thing.. but my teacher won't give it back.. he says he wants to use them as a dignostic so i don't know if we're ever going to get them back. i really wanted to see his reaction. anyway, i have a 35 mile bike ride this weekend so i hope it doesn't get too hot.. but i wish it would warm up a bit., i'm freezing!! i mean jeez i live in cali.. it should be warm and sunny.. but once my jersey's done drying i'll take a picture of it. it's very jewish, which makes sense since the people i'm riding with are all jewish. i don't mind.. it was just kind of a shock. so GO MITZVAH MILERS!!!!